It’s April already? What the heck?
I blinked and it’s Spring now, I guess. Well, pseudo-Spring. It rained and snowed all afternoon today, and Ryan and I were supposed to go to the gym but even that didn’t happen.
Instead, I spent most of the day cooking and cleaning, which were both things I wanted to do, since I feel like I haven’t had time to do either lately. Now the sinks are sparkling clean and the counters finally don’t have crusty soup stains on them after what was probably several weeks.
I have no one to blame but myself for the lack of cleanliness around here lately. That’s because life has been annoyingly busy for months now.
You know that feeling when your schedule is constantly packed and you’re just waiting to catch a break, but it never comes? Sometimes you feel like you’re on the cusp of it after a big project is finished or a trip ends. But then something else immediately begins, so you never get a chance to recoup.
For some reason I’ve been in go-go-go mode since the beginning of 2024. I’m not entirely complaining, since it’s partially my fault. I’m the one who decided to take on more freelance work than I could handle and also book a last-minute trip to see my family last week.
But I didn’t plan for the annoying stuff that’s been happening on top of everything I actually wanted to do — like the car shit that dominated my life for several months and other miscellaneous obligations that have cropped up since then.
Anyway, this past weekend was busy again. We visited Ryan’s family for Easter and had a wonderful time. But I can tell we are both exhausted because we’ve taken so many naps since we got home and are struggling to get through basic chores. (For example, there’s a load of laundry in the dryer we did yesterday that neither of us have folded yet.)
Friends, I’m just wiped. I sat down to write this newsletter and genuinely had nothing interesting to write about this week. Some ideas buzzed around in my brain, but none manifested into an essay I actually wanted to share.
I don’t ever want to send you folks essays that suck. So I decided to just skip writing this week. Please don’t hate me (though you’re an understanding bunch so I’m sure you won’t).
Last time I took a break, it was the end of December and I just couldn’t get myself to focus. It felt like the gears were slipping in my head and I couldn’t produce cohesive thoughts. This time it’s different — I want to write, but I’m just so tired, and I can’t get into the storytelling spirit. Hence why this update ended up being a rambling mess.
Maybe this is just a seasonal thing I’ll have to deal with? It seems that whenever the seasons shift or there’s a big holiday (like New Years), the essays just don’t flow. Do you fellow creatives experience something similar?
I fully believe there are seasons for everything, and there are just times when you can’t force something to happen no matter how much you want it. Writing can be like that sometimes. I’m great at pushing through my writer’s block when it comes to stuff I write for my freelance clients, but creative writing projects are different. Enjoying the process is a huge part of writing this newsletter. Why force myself to write if it feels like pulling teeth?
Anyway, I resign — for today, at least. I am going to prioritize resting for the rest of this week, as much as I can. Here’s hoping that works out and I can come back with something great next Tuesday!
Thank you all for believing in me and following along. If I could send you something besides and essay this week, it’d be a sweet treat.
I can’t really do that through the internet, but I can share this picture of the incredible Easter/Spring-themed donuts we had this weekend:
I know it’s a little silly to plug my Ko-fi during a week I don’t write anything good. But my supporters ALWAYS deserve a shoutout. So this is mostly for them:
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